"As I rearrange these songs again, this mix could burn a hole in anyone"

"If you need me I'll be here, half unconscious to escape my fear.
I can't take this I come unglued, I might breakdown in front of you.
Necessary to medicate, I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake."

Musical mood in an old school way. Just got back from a few trips of helping Britni move some of her 'non-furniture' accessories. We visited Andrew at work and he gave us free bbq wings and a really cheesy chicken, onion and (unfortunately) mushroom pizza. I just picked the mushrooms off the couple pieces I ate and it was free :)

"My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight am I going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in"

This music puts me in such an awake mood, I don't think I'm gonna sleep tonight. It'll feel like a long day and I'll be exhausted, but I haven't worked myself to complete exhaustion in a long time. I'm actually looking forward to it :)
On to further music news: Britni is gonna burn me some new mellow stuff that we were listening to tonight. I think it will end up being really relaxing homework music. She also told me that this Saturday is her birthday so she's gonna head back to S.FLA and meet up with Amelia for her b-day. I know I'm supposed to move that day, but I kinda wanna make a fun birthday trip to see Amelia and go to the beach. Cira expressed interest in wanting to do the beach this Friday/Saturday, so maybe I'd even get company for the ride(s).

So I'm making a mix-tape now. Should be fun to 'give' this with the letter if I ever get the courage. It sounds like fun in my head so I'm actually taking some time on this even if it ends up being all for not.

I need to call Wolfe and then call CK to pick up that desk once the hour becomes acceptable. It always feels weird staying up through the night to when normal people begin their days. Just goes to show how much of a system is really in place and makes me appreciate the time I don't spend 'plugged in' to that system. Especially considering how connected I'm gonna have to be staying within any nuclear field that isn't medical.

But we only get one gift of life. To spend it living whatever way brings happiness without purposely harming others is the goal right? I wish that one day I could be good enough at something that others would enjoy watching the sight of me at 'work'. Ah, to still be young enough to dream :)