Wow! So I was just unpacking a box in my room before work and I came across a two-page MS Word Document that I believe was titled "I Remember" buried underneath a comforter meant for far colder climate and thus would never need to be unpacked. The paper would have a carbon date set 15-16 months ago if my estimations are correct. It's strange to see the difference between my thoughts from last summer compared to this one. It does help prove to myself that I am a different person now than I was a year ago, however, different doesn't necessarily mean better. Last years' document was two pages consisting of a list of happy memories and important events concluded with a large paragraph begging for another shot. The new document was three pages written as a letter with conscious paragraph flow and distinct thoughts within them. It didn't beg for another shot but rather explained my thoughts clearly and even offered the opportunity for friendship if it was desired. This time I had the courage to give the letter while the old one was left to be forgotten about at the bottom of a box. Last time she came back to me, this time she hasn't even called. What irony that I was happier when I wasn't happy with who I was as a person, yet I am the saddest I have ever been now that I am finally happy with who I am as a person. Is there a better way to combine the two than the obvious?
Mel moves up 'for good' tomorrow night I believe and has orientation all day Friday. Now that she'll be here I need to stop procrastinating buying a coffee table, TV stand, kitchen table and chairs. All this brings up the reminder the I need to call about getting my TV back. I would prefer to get the TV back before her birthday on Saturday (the big twenty-one) but there is no guarantee she will even be in town this week(end).
Running low on funds and I know that I need to do quite a bit of spending over the course of the next month or so. In addition to furniture and a phone, I need to buy books/school supplies and I want to buy some new clothes and maybe some gadgets. I've been picking up shifts recently to afford these soon to come expenses but I'm afraid it wont be enough pretty soon.
On the brighter side of things, Amelia is probably on her way back into town tonight! I'm sure that will bring me over to HQ after work for a few hours. Maybe that will inspire another post tonight.
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