"You're face to face with the man who sold the world."

So I haven't posted in a brief while because I've had a lot of things on my mind that I did not wish to share with the masses (however small that may be). I just don't understand how people are able to live with themselves after some of the choices they make and resulting actions that occur. Do they just not understand the consequences of their actions or do they just not care? Are they able to see the error in their ways and be helped or are they lost causes? And finally, who are we to be able to decide the answers to these questions?

There is a reason I have lost faith in humanity. It seems as though a genuinely good natured person does not exist. And if they do, they fall into the realm of some other form of mind control (such as religion) that dictates their actions for them. Apparently it is too much to ask for people to WANT to act kind towards one another for no reason other than wanting to act in such a manner. If it isn't for God, for Jesus or for whatever then it isn't worth doing.

The "Do unto others..." quote to this generation is paraphrased as you should do kind to others in fear that if you don't they will do something evil back. It seems too difficult for such 'modernized 21st century people' to think of doing kind unto others because it is the right thing to do as an appropriate justification of one's actions. Instead we seek the fear as giving us a reason to act in a certain manner. Because right or wrong, fear is unfortunately always a justifiable excuse for any action.

So. What fear drives you? What fear drives me? There has to be something slowly brewing within me that dreads a certain set of circumstances. Something to which fear is my only natural response. Is it Failure? Rejection? Losing? Arachnids? All of the above? Any of these answers would be easily understood to an onlooker because they are mostly fears that a majority of the populous shares every day. Going back to that "Do unto others..." quote, I don't want to think of my actions as scripted by my own personal demons and fears. But rather, I'd like to view them as 'fear-less' guidelines for which to follow or base actions upon. To do the 'right' thing without expecting reward, and hoping that such a small action might help change people's outlook on their fellow human beings. Social experiment number two is under way, meanwhile S.E.#1 is moving along nicely but conclusions are still to come in the future.

[What's in my head]:
"You don't even see. They're laughing at you. Laughing at you to me."